Only a few days to go!

Wow!  It's crazy how time flies!  Only a few days left to surgery.  I keep oscillating between nervous and excited.  Yes of course I'm excited, I want that end result.  I want to be the thin me I know is hiding behind the skin and separated muscles.  I can't wait t see what I actually look like without it!  I do know I will have a long way to go, the recovery is hard and long and swelling lasts for a long time.  I know most people go through a tummy tuck go through a period of depression about 4-5 days post surgery, I'm really hoping hat being aware of this will help me prevent or at least lessen the emotional roller coaster.

Am I nervous?  You bet!  My number one fear is that something happens to me during surgery, I have three young kids and a husband who need me.  And of course I'm worried about my recovery, I'm not a big pain person, I avoid it whenever possible and I'm paying someone to cut me up and put me back together like Humpty-Dumpty!  My youngest who is almost three is still very attached to me, he never went through that "daddy" phase like my other two.  He still insists that I make his food, dress him, help him to the bathroom, put him in bed, brush his teeth... Last night my husband tried do his bedtime routine, this resulted an complete meltdown including screaming "I want mom!" Over and over before my husband was even able to brush his teeth.  What is going to happen when I am unable to help do these things?  I really he hope that he reacts better to my mom than he did to his dad.